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Jun. 23rd, 2013

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I've got to stop this...

every time I watch Doctor Who or Sherlock, or any number of other hits me right in the heart. Oh the feels....not only because it makes me sad for the characters...but because I *want* that. That connection...however horrid John feels, or the Doctor or Rose....they had that connection to begin with. They LOST something...that's why the feels are so powerful.

Why does true love only exist for *some*?
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How can things be going so well, but I feel so ....broken?

Apr. 25th, 2013

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Birds birds birds!

I'm going to have to start really birdwatching. There seem to be so many more interesting birds here than in the DFW Metroplex, I'm guessing because this part of the Midwest/West (what is NE considered, anyway?) is on migratory routes for several species.
So far, I've seen:

Canada Geese
Wild turkeys
Eastern bluebird
Yellow warbler
White-breasted Nuthatch
Red-winged blackbird
American Crow
European Starling
a variety of ducks
a bunch of different raptors I haven't been close enough to identify
and although I haven't seen it, I have definitely heard some variety of woodpecker

None of these are particularly uncommon, but they are much more colorful and have much nicer songs than the common birds in DFW. Next year hopefully we'll be able to go and see the cranes at their migration stops.

Aug. 19th, 2010

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First Birthday Poll!

So Sylvie's first birthday is in just about 2 months. We'll be having a party for her, and I want to do a theme. Of course I understand this is totally for me, because she's 1, and she could care less...but I want it to be cute and fun for the older kids. So mostly, the "theme" involves how I'll design the invitations, how to decorate the cupcakes/cake, and possibly what kinds of food and/or goodies we'll have.
It will almost definitely be at the park near us, and will only involve maybe 20 people (10-12 adults, 6 - 8 kids), all family or neighbors.
Tell me what you think, and feel free to add comments/ideas/whatever. I'm excited and a little sad about this - we're not having anymore, so this will be my last first birthday - *sob*

Poll #1607580 First Birthday!

Theme for Sylvie's first birthday

Princesses/Fairy/something fantasy-ish
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Apr. 20th, 2010

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Today I lost my daughter. I got her back, or I wouldn't be so glib about it, but holy crap it scared me to death.

We were playing a game that we've played before, where she is outside in front and runs up and rings the doorbell and I yell "Who is it?" she yells "Nobody!" and I go looking for her out the windows while she giggles madly. Baby was being a basket case, so I was yelling to her from the glider while I nursed the baby. She had VERY strict instructions that she was not to go past the sidewalk, or beyond the edges of our house on either side.

After a few repeats of the doorbell-ringing, things got quiet for a few minutes, maybe 3 or 4? Less than 5, for sure. I figured she was in the front yard poking interesting things with a stick, or pulling my roses off the bush, her usual pastime. But I called for her, and she did not answer.

So out the front door I went, baby still nursing away. Hollered again. Again no answer. Stomach was sinking rapidly, blood pressure rising, heartbeat increasing. Pulled baby off breast (commence irate screaming), retrieved shoes, started hollering madly for Maddie. No answer.

Across-the-street neighbor was outside, and started off down the street looking too. I visited next-door neighbor's house to see if she was there, and they come outside to look too.

Next stop, the neighborhood park (a couple blocks away). Halfway there, check with a group of kids outside playing if they've seen her, and no, they haven't (and they've been there much longer than she's been gone), so it's pretty clear she didn't go that way.

Head back to my street really starting to panic because there aren't any other ways she could have gone that don't involve crossing several streets, etc.

Just rounding the corner and here comes across-the-street neighbor with her in his arms. She's FINE. She'd seen some kids playing at the top of our street (we live on a cul-de-sac), and had run up "real quick" to say hi, and then gone into one of their backyards. She couldn't hear me calling, and I couldn't see her due to a slight curve in the street (couldn't see that the kids were outside either, or I'd've headed there first).

From the time I first called for her and she didn't answer, until I saw her with the neighbor was 10 minutes, tops. It was the LONGEST ten minutes of my life. I was practically running down the street, carrying a naked, bawling infant, and I was on complete auto-pilot. My brain just kept stuttering "Gone, she's gone, she's gone" over and over again, and I couldn't consciously think of what to do next.

She kept saying "Mommy I'm sorry I scared you, Mommy I'm sorry you lost me. I jsut wanted to go play with the other kids in their yard."

Oh, and then on the way into the house, she closed her fingers in the front door. Had a moment of panic over how quickly they'd bruised up, thinking OMG, did she just break 3 fingers??? before I realized it was leftover pigment on her skin from the painting she'd been doing earlier. It all came off in the bath :-)

So all is well, but damn, that was scary.

Jan. 15th, 2010

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I find it completely inconceivable that my husband actually got angry (not furious, just .... angrily irritable?) with me because I want to donate money to the effort in Haiti.

I said something to him about a poll I saw on CNN, where 56% of the respondents said they're not donating. He said "Well, I'm not donating" and I said I was (not as much as I'd like, especially since I haven't been paid since beginning of December), and he got really quiet. So I asked what was up, and he said it irritates him that I'd give money to something like that ("something like that" being Doctors Without Borders or the Red Cross").

Really? REALLY? W.T.F.??????

I don't get it. Why would you NOT give something? Those people's lives have been devastated, those that survived have nothing, the country itself is very poor, there are children who have lost parents & entire families, parents who have lost children....I can't even imagine.

In Judaism, charity is very important. It's a mitzvah, a commandment, to take care of those in the community (and the community is the entire world!) who are in need. Tzedakah is an integral part of daily Jewish observance, and even as a mostly secular Jew, it's something that I've always been aware of and tried to incorporate as much as possible. It's also not just money, but time and attitude - you don't give because you *have* to, but because it is the right thing to do. We have to take care of each other.

There are many stories & examples of Jews who, upon receiving charity, promptly turned around and gave to someone who was worse off than they themselves. Despite the financial bind we are currently in, we have it pretty good. We have a house, food, heat, clean water, access to medical care...we can afford to give up a few treats so that we can help others.

This just makes me more determined to get Squeaker involved as soon as possible in charitable endeavors. And the little one too, as soon as she's ready.

Dec. 28th, 2009

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2009 Book Poll

This is the list of books I read this year - it's pretty pitiful, partially due to failing to keep track very well, and partially because I just didn't have as much time to read as I'd have liked.

As usual - clicky the ticky if you've ever read any of these books.
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Nov. 16th, 2009

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It's the little things that make you want to scream

So. My last entry talked about the bad things that could potentially be coming up in October. We seem to have dodged the bullet on some, but dang if all the little crap isn't trying to bury me.

Let's start at the beginning, with the best thing! October 12, daughter #2, formerly known as Spike, made her appearance. Everything went fine, everybody was health and happy, and delivery & recovery was smooth & uneventful for all involved. Sylvie Nox was 8 lbs, 14 oz, and 19.75 inches - big, but not huge, and the exact same size as her sister.
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Sep. 25th, 2009

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You know, I should just label October as one of *those* months, and leave it at that. And yes, I know we're not actually IN October yet, but.....last year, October was pretty rough, and it appears that this year will be the same.

Good things : Of course, Spike will be arriving on October 12, that's a pretty powerful positive! And October is generally a beautiful month in North Texas, and autumn is my favorite season. I'll be on maternity leave before Spike's birth, so I may actually have a little time to relax, besides being able to get a lot done.

Bad things : M will most likely be getting laid off just before the baby is born. And, at the end of the month, my father will go to Sloane-Kettering in NYC to find out why his PSA is rising again. Increased PSA now mean either there was a bit of normal tissue that was missed during his prostatectomy, OR the cancer has returned. Or it could also mean pretty much nothing - the tests he's doing are really super-sensitive and the levels they are detecting are really low. Apparently the literature on this subject is quite contradictory, which is why he's going to Sloane-Kettering to see the current expert on this particular situation.

So right now, October is sort of split between very good things and very bad things. Last year, I lost my cat and had a series of medical & household misadventures. Hopefully this will not be an worsening trend!

Sep. 14th, 2009



Not as if it was unexpected....but damn.

Requiscat in Pace, Patrick Swayze....

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